My Mother

To me, there is nothing harder than watching the ones you love the most suffer.
Almost 2 weeks ago my Mom went in for a total knee surgery. I have enjoyed spending time with her every day on my lunch and after work, but it sure has been hard watching her go through this. It's not easy but she is doing an amazing job at recovering. She is in a transitional rehab right now and I can't wait for her to return home. No one wants to be in a place like that.

My Mom is such a strong woman. She has been through so much in her life and never complains about it. She is so independant, so for her to have to depend on so many different people to help her right now is hard for her, but I am sure thankful for that opportunities I have had to serve her after all she has done for me in my life.

Yesterday was by far the hardest day for her, and for me. I had a feeling all morning that I needed to go over and see how she was doing. I had only planned on going after work that day, but plans change and I am so glad I listened to that prompting. She was in so much pain. They work her so hard in PT there and they don't keep up on her pain. So by the time she get's any pain medicine she is already at a 10 and can barely move at all. I felt so horrible seeing her that way. To see her cry and be in so much pain, just made me cry too. I am sure that is the last thing she wanted, was for me to cry but c'mon.. I am pregnant and emotional right now, so it's bound to happen.
I helped her get comfortable and then I helped feed her. I am sure she doesn't want everyone knowing that her 26yr old daughter fed her, but its all she could do to just chew her food. I was so greatful I was there to help her. Family is so important to me. I would do anything for my family, and I hope they all know that and that I have shown that.

Today She goes to the Dr. for her check up and I hope she get's good news that she can go home. It will be just as rough there, but at least she would feel more comfortable in her own surroundings.

If I have learned anything over this past week and half I have learned to love more and to serve more. I know that when I am serving others I am at my happiest. what a great feeling!