Thursday, April 30, 2009

Ramblings and My Addiction....

Im going completely insane. It's been one week! That's it. Im pathetic that I can barely even handle one week of lying in bed, not being able to walk, to clean, to get dressed. I thought it would take me a little longer that 1 week for me to go crazy. I was wrong. On the good side of lying in bed, depending on everyone else around me to take care of me, Im completely addicted to Grey's Anatomy! Ok, so maybe that isn't a good thing. I mean, I never watched it before I had all this time on my hands. I can't figure out why though. I litteraly have not done anything else, not even slept for the past 2 days because of this show. It's just that amazing. Because I have nothing else to do I don't feel bad for this addiction either. which is the best part. I hate feeling guilty for lying around, doing nothing just so I can catch up on some meaningless television drama. You see, I have nothing else to do.. so its guilt free, and I'm lovin' it!

Oh, and because I have nothing else to do, you will all have to deal with me changing my background every other day. Im THAT bored!

I think I will have Steve take me for a walk tonight. It would be nice to get outside of this stuffy house

Monday, April 27, 2009

Post-Op First 5 Days

Day 1:
I did alright, spent most of the day sleeping from the pain medication and anesthesia. Didn't feel much pain since I just slept

Day 2:
Figured out that the pain pills the dr gave to me were not helping at all, only make me nausiated. Day 2 was the worst day so far by far. Anesthesia was wearing off, couldn't get on top of my pain and getting up to the wheelchair then to the walker to get to the bathroom was a very frustrating process. I cried a lot this day, but had a fantastic dinner by Melinda

Day 3:
After LONG hours of my husband running back and forth from the Dr. in Murray trying to get a new pain medication for me, I finally got it and I slept the rest of my day away. Only have to get up maybe 4 times to use the restroom. That is a huge improvement from the other 2 days. We also had a great meal brough to us by Steve's sister Sarah for dinner and my sister brought yummy soup for lunch.

Day 4:Great day! Since I can't go upstairs or use the shower I figured out how to wash my hair downstairs and my cute husband helped me.That was the best part of day 4, having clean hair. My sister came to visit and Steve's parents and Jenny did as well. They made us dinner which was fantastic.

Day 5:
Look like that's today. Feeling good. Im alone at home, which I was really nervous about but im actually doing really well. I have managed to make it to the bathrrom in my wheelchair by myself, fixed myself some breakfast, and changed my clothes. I think its time for some more medicine, but Im feeling pretty confident today. Today is a good day!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

1 day

So I have 1 day left before I go in for my surgery! It drives me crazy that they don't tell you when it's going to be until the day/night before. I know that it doesn't really matter when, but I am a planner. I like to know in advance when things are gonna happen.

On Monday I had my pre-op appointment with my dr. Before that appointment I was feeling so much anxiety, stress and was very overwhelmed. He told me that although I am going to have to spend the next 7-8 weeks in bed the good news is I will be able to put pressure and walk on my left foot. So I will be able to use crutches to get around after 3 weeks. That made me feel really good just to know that while I am home alone I don't have to worry about how I'm going to get to the bathroom, or eat, etc. It took a lot of stress off me, but sad to say Im still feeling a lot of anxiety.

I don't know why but I have this irrational fear running through my head day and night. I have a fear that Im going to die during the surgery. I know, that sounds so stupid. Its not necessarily a fear of dying. Its more a fear of dying and not seeing and saying goodbye to the people I love first. It scares me. I have had a hard time sleeping since I found out I was having surgery because I dream of awful things going wrong during the surgery. I hate that I always think about the worst possible situation and think its going to happen to me.

I took yesterday off to prepare my house and when I woke up yesterday I realized I don't even know what I need to do to prepare. It was very overwhelming. I had Steve bring out mattress downstairs since I wont be able to make it upstairs and I cleaned a little. Other than that, I just sat there wondering what I really needed to do. What does one need to do to prepare for being laid up in bed for a long while? I had/have no clue. The only thing I know is that I need a blessing. That's all I really need.

Speaking of blessing. I am so thankful that I have a husband who hold's the preisthood. I am learning more and more to use it. Growing up I didn't have a priesthood holder in my life so if I ever needed a blessing it was only if I was in DYER need since we would have to call over my Home Teachers to do it. It's hard getting used to just being able to tell Steve I need a blessing. Its taken some getting used to, but I absolutely love that I can do that and love and I am so greatful that Steve has made the decisions he has that has kept him worthy and made him who he is today.

Monday, April 13, 2009


See this above? Yeah, that is how I will be getting around starting next Thursday for at least a couple weeks. Oh and remember my big black boot? yeah, well I get 2 of those. Yep! It's gonna be a pretty site. I know you all are asking why? Why Katy? Why are you choosing to sport around such stylish accessories? Well, the reason is I found out today that I will be having surgery on both my feet next week. I have a cyst in my right foot that needs to be removed and tarsal tunnel in my left that needs to be taken care of. I have been in such pain with my feet for who knows how long and finally found an amazing dr who was able to figure out whats going on with me and find a solution.I just hope that after the recovery I will see a significant improvement from where I am now. I have never had surgery before so Im actually pretty nervous. I watch a lot of those medical shows and all the bad Anesthesia problems come floating to my head. At least I have the Lord on my side. I know he will keep me safe and help me feel comfort now and through til I have the surgery. So, for all you out there planning on having a dance off count me out for this one but know I will back bigger and badder than before.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Weekend in STG!

A 6am departure turned into a 9:30 departure. It's too hard getting up at 6 when you know you don't have to. Droped the dogs off at my parents and we were on our way. Thanks to my new GPS Katy got me for Christmas we found the hotel with ease and hit up Red Lobster for a late lunch.
After the Old Navy next door, it was to the movies to see Monsters vs Aliens. Apparently it was opening day of the Hannah Montana movie too, but after we made it through the crowd of little girls to our seats, we really enjoyed the movie. Appropriate enough for children, but with humor that adults can enjoy. See it if you get the chance.
We made it make to the hotel in time to get an evening swim in at the hotel pool. After cleaning up we went to Iceberg for a shake and fries. We hadn't realized that it was spring break until we got to Iceberg and it was full of High school kids. The over inflated sense of self worth that high school boys display is funny. They've got life all figured out. The swag this kid had in his LeBron James jersey, you'd think he were actually LeBron. Anyhow, after shakes we finally relaxed for the night.
We woke up the next morning to rain. We made it across the street from the hotel to Cracker Barrel for breakfast.
After breakfast Katy got her nails done and we visited the outlet stores, which are nothing that special compared to what we have close by in Park City, but Katy found a couple shirts at one of her favorite stores down the street at the Red Cliff's Mall.

With nothing else on the agenda and the rain stopped we headed back to swim and had the pool all to ourselves for quite a while.
We had dinner at a new place across the street from the Hilton called Player's Sports Grill. It was packed with cars when we drove by the night before so we figured it must be good, and it was amazing! Kind of like Iggy's but better. Katy got pizza with the most amazing crust I've ever tasted, and I had the mushroom & swiss burger with onion rings home made and dipped in batter. Try it next time you're in the area.
Enjoyed an amazing hotel breakfast before leaving home in the morning to make it home in time for a family Easter din din. Fun weekend away from home for a change, but we defiantly want to plan another trip back very soon and do Zion's when it's not rainy and see some plays at the Tuacahn theater. Let us know if you have other suggestions.

Thursday, April 9, 2009


I'm very excited about some changes that will be happening in my life. It took me a while to become excited about it. Change hasn't alwasy been the easiest thing for me. As I look more and more at it, and the need it has in my life I realize change isn't something to be scared of. You should embrace it and take it in whole heartedly. Im so glad I have such a supportive husband as well who welcomes change too! I'm in a good place in my life right now, and will be even better soon. I'm so greatful to be alive!!

"If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it." ~Mary Engelbreit

On another note, my sister had her 5th child last week. 5th! I can't believe it and its a BOY! Is a HUGE change to have a boy on this side of the family that lives in Utah. I don't even know what to do with him, but he sure is adorable. I had an amazing opportunity to go to my sisters house and watch her other 4 children for 2 days while she was in the hospital giving birth to her beautiful son Noah. It truly was an amazing opportunity. I knew that it was temporary so that maybe made it easier on me. I do have a lot more respect for my sister and other people who are Mothers and all they have to do. Its a tough job but so rewarding. I love my nieces with all my heart. They mean the world to me and I'm so glad I was able to be with them, and take care of them for a couple days. It made me very excited to someday be a Mom. I can't wait. I know it will be a lot of work but it will be worth it! Here is a picture of the cute boy Noah Born April 2nd on his Mommy's birthday!